claimed QUEEN

of all the lines in a song that best fits what i'm feeling right now..

this one says it all..

..... I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the QUEEN of pain

not in the mood..

galabad akong ulo..

cge'g hinuna-huna..

mahuna-huna na lang nako tanan.. di lang jd japon mao akong mahuna-hunaan..

hhhaayyy.. yupak oie!


im not in the mood.. i dunno , when i will be..

*sigh*

how many times ?

how many times have i thought of just dropping everything and running away?

ANS: countless

how many times have i DONE what i thought?

ANS: NEVER

damn!

add this moment now to the "countless times" that I AM
thinking of running away( it is in the present tense, im still
thinking IT now)

i've always been an optimistic person.. you know the type
who thinks: "oh..everything is gonna be ok..tomorrow is gonna be better.
and i BELIEVE that everything is gonna be OK ..(really!)

BUT there are just times that ( i wish ) while waiting for
things to be OK, i wish that i can just run away from it all..

sigh..

just how many times mores will i think about it?

will i ever get to do it?

friends --in my dictionary

present day: may 20, 2008

it's 7:36 am..and im supposed to be in bed by now temporarily disconnected from the world, and travelling in dreamland..BUT, well, snap! im here..no dreamland for today..

of course.. something came up....better than dreamland..
hmp! friendships.. hehehe..

hmm.. in my own terms, lemme define it:

friends (n.) 1.persons who who are close to you, regardless of the time
whether u are a thousand miles apart. they are still close to
you.

2.persons who u love to talk to and at the same time love to talk
about.
those who love to fight with, and fight for.
those who give you something , but then asks for it back later
on..

3.persons who are not afraid to humiliate you in from the whole
world..
(curse you friends!)
but later on , gets so scared of what you might do to them.

4.persons, who still treat you, (no matter if u're manager, a
supervisor , or a CEO), as that girl/boy who farted out loud
way back in college or hi-school!

hahahaha!

5. persons, who are BRUTALLY HONEST with you( and i mean
brutally)
they have the power to turn ur world into ashes in a split
second. and turn it into ice-cream after 2 minutes

IT's CRAZY!!!!!!!!!

*****NOTE:
meanings 1 to 4 will only apply if you friends are TRUE!

5 places..

TOP 1. mountain view..
(nag-tent mi kuyog ako 2 k amg amiga., nya kanang igka-gabii. nindot kaau i-istorya
lagi,(or contemplate) about everything and anything.. about hopes and
dreams..with all the lights down below, naka-ana jud ko.. "the world is
at my feet tonight..")

2. beach sa opon..papa mente kay wlay bayad..
(one night, naabot na pd mi did2.. did2.. higda sa sand..tan-aw sa stars..minaw sa
waves..
naka-ana ko.." dakoa sa heaven oie.. asa kaha akong star ana?")

3. sa first mactan bridge..
(gabii gihapon ni..naay dagat, naay pud yuta..naka-ana ko.. "asa jud
kaha ko padung noh?"..)

4.sa sto.nino..
(kanang sa hawan sa gawas.. romantic kaau na nga place para nako
oie.. murag in a different time and era..naka-ana ko.."lord, guide me..")

5. kanang area sa FUENTE kanang daghan galinya diha..
(nindot ilakaw diha, basta nuon kaadlawn , basta di lang ka matulisan..
in the middle of the hustle and the bustle of the city.. the city lights ba.
naka-ana pud ko.. " is this all there is to it? what really matters most?")



(from my multiply blog.. )

..full circle

what will you do if in the middle of dawn..sleep just dont visit you?

hmmmmm... u probably have a lot of things in mind.. or none at all..

well, its ok.. i cant think of any either..

so, i'll just do what i always love to do..
tadadadadadada...

think.

yawn..boorrinngg!

hahahaha! yeah.. it is.. but it's sooo natural.. i dont even
have to think about doing it or not..

well,i went to drew's party earlier(its her 23rd bday)
and from age 21 to age 23, she has matured a LOT

and i mean -A LOT..(take it from me, who hated her before
because of her immaturity and how i
love her for what how she has matured .)

sometimes, i still get amazed at how things change..
at how people change, over a span of time..

i AM still amazed at how much I have changed in every aspect of my
life now..

maybe it's with the experiences.
maybe it's the people i deal with.
maybe it's the place that i live in now.

maybe, it's me.. that i want it. that i need it.

ive changed.. the things that ive hated before..
ive come to see and experience it..

before i was just looking from the other side of the circle.
the upper side at that..
ive looked down and abhored the other side of it--- the lower side.

funny how life play its game on you..
the things along the way---it just cant be avoided.

ive seen the other side and actually have been on the other side.
the things that i hated--i've done,

the things that i CAN'T ever ever thing of doing.
i DID it now

the things i refused to say
ive said IT

the feelings that i though i can never feel
i've felt.


its funny, its crazy, its scary, its cool, its unbelievable
but,

it's true..

im both proud and aghast at all those things.
not all of i did are bad..not all are good either.

but still, i went through it..all the good and the bad..

i've wondered and discovered myself.
i've loved and hated myslef.
i've quarreled and made peace with myself.

i guess now, its safe to say,


i've come full circle..







(and im sleepy..finally)