..full circle

what will you do if in the middle of dawn..sleep just dont visit you?

hmmmmm... u probably have a lot of things in mind.. or none at all..

well, its ok.. i cant think of any either..

so, i'll just do what i always love to do..
tadadadadadada...

think.

yawn..boorrinngg!

hahahaha! yeah.. it is.. but it's sooo natural.. i dont even
have to think about doing it or not..

well,i went to drew's party earlier(its her 23rd bday)
and from age 21 to age 23, she has matured a LOT

and i mean -A LOT..(take it from me, who hated her before
because of her immaturity and how i
love her for what how she has matured .)

sometimes, i still get amazed at how things change..
at how people change, over a span of time..

i AM still amazed at how much I have changed in every aspect of my
life now..

maybe it's with the experiences.
maybe it's the people i deal with.
maybe it's the place that i live in now.

maybe, it's me.. that i want it. that i need it.

ive changed.. the things that ive hated before..
ive come to see and experience it..

before i was just looking from the other side of the circle.
the upper side at that..
ive looked down and abhored the other side of it--- the lower side.

funny how life play its game on you..
the things along the way---it just cant be avoided.

ive seen the other side and actually have been on the other side.
the things that i hated--i've done,

the things that i CAN'T ever ever thing of doing.
i DID it now

the things i refused to say
ive said IT

the feelings that i though i can never feel
i've felt.


its funny, its crazy, its scary, its cool, its unbelievable
but,

it's true..

im both proud and aghast at all those things.
not all of i did are bad..not all are good either.

but still, i went through it..all the good and the bad..

i've wondered and discovered myself.
i've loved and hated myslef.
i've quarreled and made peace with myself.

i guess now, its safe to say,


i've come full circle..







(and im sleepy..finally)