..what's with a hug?

whats with a hug?

it could mean nothing..

it could mean a lot..

that afternoon, it meant a lot.

I needed a hug.

She was there too.. She needed a hug..

I was in a better position than her. I hugged her..

It felt weird and funny. Yet, it felt nice and sad.

But, it felt right.

Nice,that I've finally faced it.. faced her up front.

Sad, because we could've been friends.. I could've been there for her.But we are in a situation that it different.

But that hug..it meant a lot.

It wasn't just a hug for me.

It was acceptance.. understanding and forgiveness.

I hugged her.. But I also got the hug I wanted to have.

I did it for her without realizing, i did as much for her..

To the girl, you might not read this, but as what I told you.

"It's gonna be alright.. You have to be strong"

I wish we had more time to talk.. to laugh..and to share stories..

But maybe, time just allowed a hug ..

Next time.. we know, we'll always remember that hug..

Until now, I still remember it.How it felt.How true it was.

What's with a hug?

for me, it's the words that are better left unsaid , but rather expressed in the action..

..she and he..

she: will it make a difference if i say "i love you"?
he: yes, it will



after 4 years..


he: we have to break-up .. i have to grow up
she: i dont want to..i love you..but if that's where you're happy..


what happened in between?

people change.. things change.. time passes..
the mind forgets the exactness of what has happened,
but the heart remembers the feelings..

memories remain, but no matter what we all have to move on.
the forever that was promised.. has passed in time.

has he grown up? ... maybe..maybe not..
has he moved on? ... yes

has she forgotten?... no
has she moved on? ...yes

but she still remembers ... she still loves.. but she has moved on..

there is certain sadness in being the one who remembers everything..

3 years passed..

he: let's forget our differences..
she: we don't have any differences..
we just don't have anything at all.

...rain..it does know when to fall

it has been a while, since i last wrote an entry here..
so many things to do..

a lot of changes..

new responsiblities..new people.. new tasks..
new hopes.. new joys.. new expectations..
i wasnt expecting anything..

wasnt hoping for anything..

tonight, i'm remembering...

on that morning , i saw u for the first time..
no fireworks..no earth-shaking event..

my heart didn't skip a beat. no angels sang from the heavens..

you were there.. i was there..

it was just a regular day..

no, im not in love with you.im not thinking of spending days with you..

nor say words of love..

no, im too cautious for that..

yet, for someone like me who is very cautious of my feelings..

i have to admit though that...

yes, i like you..

something with you..

maybe your face.. maybe your eyes..maybe ur personality.

maybe this..maybe that..

there's something in you .. i cant define..

those happy mornings.. those unending days..

how u made me smile when i think of you ..

that passing thought of you in my mind..

our small talks..

passing conversations..

yes, you are worth thinking..

but, then again, i saw something that stopped all the maybes..

i saw it.. ive seen it..
you know that i did..
yes i like you..

but, no, it cant continue..

i knew that was it, no change of something else..
yet for that time.. it was happy.

i was happy

for a while there..it was you in my mind..
you made me happy..

you made me smile..

you made me feel again.

tonight,
i stepped out into the open air..

into the open night air..

cold air blew on my face..

the cold air after the rain..

it just stopped.

but who knows when it will start again..

rain..it does know when to fall..