...rain..it does know when to fall

it has been a while, since i last wrote an entry here..
so many things to do..

a lot of changes..

new responsiblities..new people.. new tasks..
new hopes.. new joys.. new expectations..
i wasnt expecting anything..

wasnt hoping for anything..

tonight, i'm remembering...

on that morning , i saw u for the first time..
no fireworks..no earth-shaking event..

my heart didn't skip a beat. no angels sang from the heavens..

you were there.. i was there..

it was just a regular day..

no, im not in love with you.im not thinking of spending days with you..

nor say words of love..

no, im too cautious for that..

yet, for someone like me who is very cautious of my feelings..

i have to admit though that...

yes, i like you..

something with you..

maybe your face.. maybe your eyes..maybe ur personality.

maybe this..maybe that..

there's something in you .. i cant define..

those happy mornings.. those unending days..

how u made me smile when i think of you ..

that passing thought of you in my mind..

our small talks..

passing conversations..

yes, you are worth thinking..

but, then again, i saw something that stopped all the maybes..

i saw it.. ive seen it..
you know that i did..
yes i like you..

but, no, it cant continue..

i knew that was it, no change of something else..
yet for that time.. it was happy.

i was happy

for a while there..it was you in my mind..
you made me happy..

you made me smile..

you made me feel again.

tonight,
i stepped out into the open air..

into the open night air..

cold air blew on my face..

the cold air after the rain..

it just stopped.

but who knows when it will start again..

rain..it does know when to fall..