..i've come full cricle.

i logged into my multiply account.. here is one of the blogs i wrote there...

one night.....

what will you do if in the middle of dawn..sleep just won't visit you?
hmmmmm... u probably have a lot of things in mind.. or ..none at all..
well, its ok.. i cant think of any either..

so, i'll just do what i always love doing..
tadadadadadada...!

think.

*yawn*..boorrinngg!
hahahaha! yeah.. it is..
but, it's sooo natural.. i dont even have to think about doing it or not..

well,i went to drew's party earlier(its her 23rd bday) and from age 21 to age 23, she has matured a LOT and i mean -A LOT..(take it from me, who hated her before because of her immaturity and how i love her for what how she has matured .)

sometimes, i still get amazed at how things change..
at how people change, over a span of time..


i AM still amazed at how much I have changed in every aspect of my life now..

maybe it's with the experiences.
maybe it's the people i deal with.
maybe it's the place that i live in now.

maybe, it's me..

that i want it.

that i need it.

ive changed..
the things that ive hated before.. ive come to see and experience it..

before ,i was just looking from the other side of the circle. the upper side at that..
ive looked down and abhored the other side of it--- the lower side.

funny how life play its game on you..

the things along the way---it just cant be avoided.
ive seen the other side and actually have been on the other side.

the things that i hated--i've done,
the things that i CAN'T ever ever thing of doing. i DID it now.

the things i refused to say ive said IT.
the feelings that i though i can never feel ,i've felt.

its funny,
its crazy,
its scary,
its cool,
its unbelievable

but, it's true..

im both proud and aghast at all those things.

not all of i did are bad..not all are good either.
but still, i went through it..all the good and the bad..
i've wondered and discovered myself.
i've loved and hated myslef. i've quarreled and made peace with myself.

i guess now, its safe foe me to say,

i've come full circle..